I don't know what I’m doing

how do i let my bf know that i actually like the idea of pre engagement rings, but not in like a creepy religious way, but confirmation of like - this is what i’m working for in this relationship, since me/i don’t wanna get physically married until i’m like 30 and that’s far away, and like I know marriage really doesn’t mean anything and this is all arbitrary bullshit anyway but idk, i like jewelry and i like grand statements of love cause i’m a sucka, and i know he’s the one

i’m sad